Thursday, November 5, 2009

GET A VISION!

The following is something I wrote for Facebook but I will also post here since it goes with last week's post. Thanks all for reading and loving on my blog!

Anyone that reads my FB statuses, follows me on Twitter, reads my blog...or just talks to me may have noticed that I have been unmotivated these past couple weeks...ok, pretty much all of October. If Marian were dressed in a costume the entire month of October, it would have been a slug costume. You may not have noticed on the outside since I'm always looking so fabulous (lol...kidding!) but on the inside I felt exhausted, drab, sluggish (hence the costume), and just plain lazy. If I could've designed my own silk-screen T-shirt it would have read "I don't WANNA do nothin'!" **I know that's a double negative. My degree is in English so of course I know. Get over it.** You get the picture.

Have you ever gotten up in the morning thinking "Do I hafta go to work?" When it's time to head to the gym, you all of a sudden "can't FIND your sports bra?" How about "I've been too busy to cook so pizza was the fastest thing I could make." These questions represent the three areas in my life that have suffered last month because I lacked the right motivation. I wanted to just stay in bed and sleep, I didn't want to work out and I wanted to eat WHATEVER I wanted. What does this sound like to you? To me, it sounds like a woman who lacks vision.

You may be perplexed thinking, "Marian, you don't have a vision for your life? Don't you know that GOD has a plan for your life? Don't you want to walk out your purpose?" Yes! Of course I KNOW all that. But last month, I found myself struggling in a stagnant moat of quicksand. And the more I struggled, the deeper I seemed to sink in. Somehow, I lost sight of where I was going and hence, could not accomplish any of the goals I had established.

Proverbs 29:18 reads, "Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keepeth the law, happy is he" (KJV). Without vision...might I add, DIVINE vision, GOD'S vision...you will perish...feel slugghish, lack zeal for life...feel unmotivated. The Message translation reads, " If people can't see what God is doing, they stumble all over themselves; But when they attend to what He reveals, they are most blessed." Based on that verse, I found that I had lost sight of the DIVINE reason I was committed doing the things I was doing. It all became frivolous and unimportant because I took God out of my doing. I tell you...if you ever take God OUT of what you're doing, it will become vanity and unimportant.

In Ecclesiastes 3:11 it says that God has PLANTED eternity in the human heart. The things that I am destined to do and WILL do have eternal purpose. Attaching that to my commitments gives them worth. Knowing that I am keeping my body strong and healthy so that I can be God's instrument to reach people is for more valuable than "I wanna lose fiddy (50 ebonically speaking) pounds.

It's all about your perspective. It is beneficial to find your WHY behind the WHAT you do. If God is behind your WHY, you will have the gas in your tank to endure. If your reason is just "because" you will, like myself, become apethetic and indifferent toward what God intended to be an exciting adventure designed especially for you.

What's your point Marian? The charge I make today is "GET A VISION!" Pray and ask God to give you a vision. Ask God to give you the passion to see that vision come to fruition. Tack the vision to your forehead, computer monitor, journal, bathroom mirror...where you will see it often. Partner with God and pray over your vision...He WANTS to help you tackle it...imagine that!

WhenI realized what was going on, it changed how I viewed my job, the people in my life, the things I'm involved in, etc. You don't have to wait until 2010 to get a fresh vision...you can do it NOW!

Monday, November 2, 2009

Slump of Unmotivation



Ok people, if any of you watch my YouTube vids you'll notice that I haven't posted any in almost a month. It's because I'm in a "SLUMP OF UNMOTIVATION." That is what I've offically named this mental state that I'm in. And that's exactly what it is: A MENTAL STATE. I really need to shift how I've been thinking and process my eating and exercising because I've been downright rebellious and it's not benefiting me at all! I completely know this and yet I feel like I'm in quicksand. The more I struggle to get out, the deeper I find myself sinking. I keep thinking I need to find some quote of inspiration that'll jolt me out of this stagnant pond of poo I'm in. Thankfully the number on the scale is not changing much, but I know it's only a matter of time before it creeps up and I do not want to flush all of my efforts down the toilet.

So today, I resolve that I am serving this slump an eviction notice. You have of close of business today to get on out of my house. If you are not out by tonight, I am kicking you out into the morning cold when I have a date to exercise with a friend promptly at 5am. I EXPECT you to be gone by then. There will be no further extensions or allowances. Your time is up!