Pizza Power!

Since the START of doing Weight Watchers, I've had the biggest craving for pizza. And not just any pizza. Pizza Hut Pan pizza which happens to be the greasiet, oiliest, and fattyest pizza to my knowledge. I LOVE everything about that pizza. The ooey, gooey cheese, the buttery thick crust, and the flavor. I'll even settle for some cheesy breadsticks. I even dreamt that I ate a few of the cheese breadsticks on my first week of WW...that's how intense this craving is.

I've been doing research to find the best tasting "healthy" pizza. I tried Healthy Choice last week and though rated one of the best tasting pizzas by Hungry Girl...I disagree. The sauce was way too sweet. I found myself dissatisfied with that pizza craving ever present in front of me.

ONE slice of Pizza Hut pizza will use HALF of my allotted daily points that I get on WW. I have not decided if this is worth it yet. I think not. At this point, I would rather eat more of something else that will be filling and healthy. If I eat ONE slice of pizza, I will be hungry again in literally three minutes. And that is if Marian can muster up the will power to stop at one slice. I don't trust myself and that is why I have chosen not to splurge.

And really - it's JUST food. How can food have such POWER? Is it me fueling these fatty cravings with the power that they have? If so, can I just as much empower the HEALTHY stuff. So instead of pizza, I crave a turkey sandwich on whole wheat with tons of veggies? Is it possible to fantacize about healthy foods...to meditate on that which is good and good for me? I think so. It may require me making a concerted effort to renew my mind and my way of thinking of the foods that I choose to eat but yes, very possible. Why fantacize on that will be destructive to my health and weight loss goals when I can think about making choices that will propel me even further toward the prize and cause me to feel energetic as opposed to slumpy and lazy!

I choose that which will propel me higher today! Pizza is just not that important to me.

Another Level: More than What the Scale Says

I am so proud to say I have reached new levels in my new lifestyle of eating better. I once heard the worst aspect of being deceived is the fact that you don't know you are deceived. And when it came to my food intake, I was CONVINCED that I was eating just fine. Why? Because I was eating like EVERY other thin person that I know. But I was deceived to think that what works for every one of my friends would work for me too and that my body was malfunctioning and in need of healing. On the contrary! What needed healing and renewal was my MIND!

Mind you, I was not the outlandish overeater that many overweight people tend to be by a long shot. However, I have learned that many of the foods I was consuming was not condusive for weightloss or my body type. I'm trying an array of new foods now and I am definitely keen to what works for me and gives me energy vs what bloats me and slows me down. I try to steer clear of the latter no matter how tasty it may sound at the time. For instance, cheese...I love it. I have found the joys of lowfat and fat free cheeses that help me to stay within my caloric/fat intake goals. But cheese makes me feel icky. Does that mean I'm gonna give it up altogher? HECKS NO! But I will eat that less often than --- say fruit which my body L-O-V-E-S!

And the reveleation of what works and doesn't work is just one facet of this new level I've reached. I'm loving how I feel. The scale did not reflect a huge loss this week (1 pound) but I know that my progress is more than that. I feel leaps and bounds better about myself knowing that I am INVESTING in myself. I am literally LOVING myself more BY eating better and fueling it properly. As oppposed to eating impulsively, I'm listening to my body's signals. What is it hungry FOR? And instead of fresh fries, I'll put in cherry tomatoes, baby carrots and laughing cow cheese. YUMMERS...and my body loves it not to mention it tastes pretty bomb too.